Frustrating times at work these past few days, and I find myself feeling like a butterfly, in a jar, flapping my wings to get out....................have you ever been there, felt that way???
It seems that the harder I push myself to keep doing what I need to do..............the more problems pop up. Thankful to be able to leave it all behind me............until bright and early the next morning..................
I come home to this....................my son was able to capture it to show me. This beautiful creature has flitted back and forth in front of me for the past several years. I have tried everything to get close enough to take it's photo..................but it is as quick as lightening and I have never been able to. It is so sleek and black that it looks as if it has been dipped in fresh paint. It's blue sapphire tail shimmers as it dashes along. You can't see very well on the photo, but it has white and gold spots that run along the sides of it's face. My son was able to scoop it up and after I took these photos, he released it into the flower bed. How funny it has struck me, especially this week.........................seems I have been chasing the elusive in trying to figure out exactly what it is I am supposed to be doing in life. Have you ever reached that point?? Is it just old age with regret creeping up on me that I chose to stay home all of these years and now................what do I do?? I really thought I would find some grand outlet in my embroidery and that, that would define who I am......................or at least that was my dream..................although I like being a short order cook ............................I know it is something I don't want to spend the rest of my life doing...............especially with the events of these past few days that have unfolded.......... But do I just throw up my hands and quit...............no................not at this time.......................... I just wonder if I ever will find "my niche"..................
How about you??? Have you spent your life staying home, taking care of your family, and now it's time to find something else to do? Or have you been at the same job for eternity and now it's time for change.................and you wonder..........."what could it be" ? I would love to hear!